Free Write 10-23-12

This  weekend was so many things, Friday night just sucked. I mean there were some funny moments but for the most part it just sucked, I was not in a good mood, Tony was annoying me, and everyone was trying so hard to be funny. Then Saturday was a good day just in general, Mom and Zach made cookies, I sewed and then Saturday evening Mom, Zach, Tony, and I all went to the pumpkin patch. I really feel like mom is trying to replace Dad I know she is trying to find someone new to be happy with and have a life with but I think that there is a line on how you handle that with your kids. I do not like the fact that on Friday we had what Mom called "family" game night, then Saturday him going to the pumpkin patch with us. I feel like those are two situations where Dad should of been there. I know Im probably being too hard on my mom but it is just so hard for me to watch her completely move on, I understand that dad is moving on also but atleast he didnt have someone to introduce us to only a month after he had moved out. I just miss the way things used to be I know everyone always says that but for me its true it kills me that my parents arent together its not how I wanted it to be. But I guess does anything in life go the way we want it to, nope. I cannot believe tomarrow Caleb and I have been together five months it doesnt seem like its been that long but they it does. Hes been through so much with me in just that short time period although we have basically been together for seven months on the sixth. I cannnot believe next month will be seven months that Steeler has been gone. I miss him, I know that we were never super close but I miss his crazy antics, he was always making me laugh.