Free Write 08-23-12

I am so exhosted! It seems like it doesnt matter how much sleep I get! But once I get going hopfully Ill be ok. I am so thankful to have Caleb! I honestly dont know what I would do with out him! I mean even just like last night running me into town to get my books. He means the world to me! It feels like weve been together way longer than just 3 months! I know he is the one I want to marry. I felt like with DJ I was always fighting to keep our relationship going but now I have someone fighting for me! Caleb wants to be with me just as badly as I want to be with him! He wants to get married and have a family and spend forever together. I feel like if DJ and I had gotten married I would have spent the rest of my life wondering what he was doing and if he was still happy with me. But with Caleb I know that he is going to spend the rest of his life trying to make me happy. I cant wait till he finally pops the question I know its not too far away. I just wonder what my mom is going to say about the whole deal. I hope and pray she supports our marriage because if she doesnt there is no way he is going to marry me. I dont wanna spend the rest of my life just being with the person I love more than anything but not making it offical becasue my mom doesnt want us to be. I cant wait till we move out hopfully next month! I am so sick of seeing how his parents are treating him! They dont care what he wants they think hes a complete failure! It pisses me off that they dont see how awesome of a son they raised! He has such big hopes, dreams and goals for his life. How could they not be proud to have him as a son! Ive heard the saying before saying dont be with a man if you wouldnt be proud to have a son like him. I would be so proud of my son if he turned out like Caleb.