I honestly don’t know what to say or do. Cody left me completely speechless last night. I don’t know either to believe him or not. I’ve always had strong feelings for him and always felt like the relationship him and I have is different than the relationship he’s had with any other girl. I don’t really know what I think of this whole situation. But I do believe him when he says he wants to be with me. I know that is true because we’ve always wanted to be together. But I don’t know if he truly wants to spend his life with me. It completely throws me into the worst spot possible. Like here I am dating this awesome guy who might make a few mistakes but for the most part I feel like he would do anything for me. And then here’s the guy I have always wanted to be with. I know I love Caleb but there are a few things that concern me about spending my life with him. I am worried because I’m not really attracted to him and I think for a relationship to last you have to be attracted to them. How else are you going to keep the spark alive? I don’t know if I truly want to be with Cody or if I just like the idea of being with him. I think I need to hang out with him a few times before I really decide. I’m just freaking out because I know Caleb can’t wait to marry me and wants to propose to me after my birthday. So basically I have a month to figure all this out! It has me worried I am going to make the wrong decision. And now Jess is telling me he's full of shit. I don’t know what to do! Gahhhhh time for me to actually hang out with him. I know jess just doesn’t want me to get hurt but I need to figure this out.
No comments:
Post a Comment